Fail.

Pride sings my praises and hides my failures. 

Failure, isn't familiar territory. Failure is something I've been able to avoid...but today it ran over me like a semi. 

I received the results of a speciality certification exam, at the top it read "FAIL." My stomach dropped, my eyes filled with tears, and I stared at the word in shock. 

Let's break it down. 

I failed a test. Is a single test a true indication of my skill? No. Is it an indication of my work ethic? No, I studied 400+ hours. Is it an indication of my professional ability? No. It is an indication that I answered some questions incorrectly. Perhaps a bad test day. But guess what, that's it. It doesn't determine my worth or value because my worth is in Christ and he conquered death (a test all humans have failed ;) 

Pride results in arrogance. Pride tempted me to make excuses and sing of my prior successes. Failure with humility reminds me of my dependence upon my Savior. There is a lot to be learned from failure, I won't waste the opportunity to grow in the unfamiliar and scary territory. God made His decision about me (and you) long ago - He is crazy in love with me (and you)...regardless of my test results! 

Failure is what you make it. It can be a road block, it can stop progress BUT only if you allow it. Failure can be an ignition switch, a match that sets discipline and hard work ablaze. Failure is a choice to wallow or work. 

The Bible reads “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me." 2 Corinthians 12:9 

Lord, teach me to share my weaknesses and not be embarrassed for there is no shame in you. Take my pain and exchange it for wisdom. Amen.